Facing fears is something I know a little something about. I’ve been doing this my whole life. We all have in some way. Sometimes it seems this is all I do, because I’m afraid of a lot of things. But, I refuse to allow my fear to paralyze me.
In the midst of all these changes, I face a lot of uncertainty. Everything that used to bring a little security, a little ‘normality’, is gone and I realize nothing is secure and no one, or no family, is normal. My life …is what I make it. I’m so tired of trying to live up to everyone else’s expectations, because I can’t. I fail every day. I disappoint someone in some way. The simple truth is …the only person I need to please – is me.
I used to believe I had to strive to be the perfect mom, the perfect wife, the perfect Christian, the perfect boss, the perfect employee, the perfect neighbor, the perfect friend, the perfect writer, etc. I failed. I’m not perfect in any of these areas. In fact, I’ve botched them all, miserably.
I still find myself striving for perfection, and this effort is where most my fears originate. But, today …today I strive to be happy being me. I don’t know what tomorrow holds. I don’t know if I’ll complete all my tasks, fulfill all expectations, or find a little security, but I face my fears regardless. I have no other option, because the only other thing to do is give into those fears, and that I can’t do.
What about you? Have you found the courage to face the things that scare you most? I hope so.
Till next time,