The Perfect Man

The Perfect Man

As most of you already know… okay, fine… so as ALL of you already know, I’m single and haven’t been very successful in the crazy world of 21st century dating over 40. I think it’s because I just haven’t found my Mr. Perfect yet, but some of my best friends would argue that it’s because I’ve set the bar too high, that I dismiss way too easily, or that I have a list waaaayyy too long that no man alive on earth could ever possibly fill it. Others have told me they think I’m just being too careful and not opening my heart enough to allow anyone in, and even one of my romantic interests told me, “for someone so smart, you can be very obtuse”.  I think perhaps I’m already in love with the perfect man, I just haven’t met him yet.

First of all, to answer all these accusations (which I find quite extraordinary how everyone has an opinion on the subject in regards to me and my dating life, yet their own lives don’t reflect their advice or any evidence they have any better idea of love and relationships more than the rest of us – but that’s another blog post) concerning all my faults, I’d like to clear up a few things.

  1. I haven’t set the bar too high. How can a bar be set too high anyway?  When is someone too good or not good enough?  How low is a low set bar – prison bars, still lives at home with his mother at 45, has more debt than the federal reserve? I feel my bar is set just right.  I don’t want a ‘broke ass man’, but I don’t want one that’s so successful he doesn’t enjoy life in pursuit of wealth or position.  I don’t mind hard work as long as there is also hard play.  I don’t mind struggling as long as I’m not being carried or have to carry someone else, but that we help one another.  Ever hiked with someone?  It takes a little give and take, some leading and following.  It’s about being together and doing things together as partners in good times and bad.  Yes, I have a bar… I set the bar to the level I believe I deserve.  I’m a smart, beautiful, healthy, passionate woman.  I set my bar based on what kind of guy deserves a woman like that.  What’s wrong with that? In return, I feel I deserve romantic, faithful, funny and smart. Sheesh!
  2. I don’t dismiss way too easily. In fact, I usually give a man plenty of time to try and right his mistakes or make an effort to show his intentions.  If he doesn’t call me, text me, message me, or communicate with me in any way, shape, or fashion except the day of or hour before a date, he can find another date.  I want something real. I want to be important in his life.  I want to be someone he thinks of in the middle of the day for no other reason than I’m on his mind.  I want him to ‘share’ his life with me… different parts of it. While I never initiate, I do respond.  If I don’t feel ‘wanted’ as a whole person, then I will walk away without batting one of my real or false lashes.  I’ve lived too long not being wanted.  I’ll never do that again.  It hurts me to walk away, but I already know it’ll hurt more to stay.
  3. List? I don’t have a list?  I have standards.  But as far as a man having certain unchangeable things like physical features, personality traits, or hobbies that doesn’t mean anything.  I don’t really have a physical type because I find beauty and attractiveness in many different aspects.  I’m a sapiosexual, intelligence turns me on more than anything else.  Sure, there are some physical traits my body responds to more than others (beautiful eyes, dimples, thick thighs, strong hands), but none of them are deal-breakers, EXCEPT someone who is unhealthy.  A sick, unfit person would be detrimental to my own physical health and well-being.  So, yes… I hesitate to enter into a relationship with someone that would be destructive to the relationship I have with myself.  It took too damned long to learn to love myself and I will protect me as much as I possibly can physically, mentally, sexually, and emotionally.
  4. Too Careful? How can anyone be too careful?  Perhaps people should be a little more careful and we’d have less heartbreak in the world.  Perhaps if we took our time and actually tried to get to know a person before we jump right into a commitment, relationships wouldn’t implode so soon.  I’ve had someone I loved very much think by me not saying “I love you” only after a short while was an indication that I didn’t love them at all or that I wasn’t interested in having a serious relationship with them.  In fact, I was very much in love with them, but I wanted to build something good, something real, something strong so I held back getting lost in the emotion and ended up losing them instead.   We live in such a fast-paced world filled with instant gratification, no one takes times to build any solid foundations anymore.  Building on shifting sand never lasts.  Am I foolish to want something strong, something that will survive during the storms I know that will come? If I ever tell you “I love you” it will be because I’d mean it with every part of my heart.  I don’t say what I don’t mean.

Does the perfect man exist?  No.  Neither does the perfect woman. But I do believe there is a man out there that will be perfect for me.  He won’t be the richest, most successful, most handsome, most romantic, most intelligent, or sexiest man alive, but he will be everything I want, need, and hope for… he will suit me, push me, inspire me, make love to me, irritate me, confront me, turn me on, move me, piss me off, make me laugh, make me think outside the box, but most of all love me just as I am.

Till next time,

~T.L. Gray

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  1. Twenty years ago, I was still looking for Mr. RIght. I almost passed on my current husband because at the time he was married (a small issue) and smoked. I thought we would be just friends. Then I heard the horror stories about his wife. No, he didn’t exaggerate. If anything, he understated the woman’s crazy. I lept off the single cliff and learned to fly. He stopped smoking and got a divorce. We will celebrate 18 years of marriage in June. He was with me when my mother passed away. I was with him through custody trials for his kids. We still look at each other and can’t believe how lucky we are. Thanks for letting me share! Demi

  2. I’m so happy you found YOUR Mr. Perfect. I wish you both lots of lots of love and happiness.

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