Many days and many times I run out of energy. I am made of energy and everything I do requires energy – energy to move, energy to dig in, energy to keep going, energy to talk, energy to feel, energy to stay positive, energy to work, energy to play, etc. ON the downside, it also takes energy to cry, energy to hurt, energy to worry, energy to stress, energy to fret, and energy to be angry.
Energy is the strength and vitality required for sustained physical or mental activity. Motivation is stored positive energy. Inspiration is the birth of energy. Isolation is my way to protect my energy. Procrastination is the reluctance to expel or use energy. It’s the source of my vitality, it what animates my life, it’s what fuels my passions, stirs the fires within my soul, it strengthens my desires, is the source of my strength and stamina. It’s another name for drive-desire-determination.
So what happens when I am empty? When I’ve made decisions in my life that expel and use more energy than I produce and store? My gas tank runs dry, my guns have no ammunition, and my reserves are empty.
Life is about balance. ALWAYS balance. If I want something different to happen in my life, I have to do something different. If I want to use energy, I must learn to store and build the same amount of energy. But often I’m unbalanced, using more than I stored, burning my gears, becoming exhausted.
Love is energy, but that too has to be in balance. If I love more than the amount of love I receive, I’m unbalanced and will burn out. If I receive more love than I give, I’ll become complacent and take advantage and become dependent on its source. But, then what happens when that love disappears from my life because it’s been exhausted? Will I have anything stored?
That’s not how energy works. That’s not how love works. Neither has a shelf life. It’s a force that needs constant motion or movement, it’s always building or breaking, growing or dying. The more I pour in, the faster and harder I can go – in the present. I can’t store it in now and expect to use it in 20 years. Stored energy needs to be used quickly and soon. Stored love is to be used in the present.
At some point I have to learn to pour in, to build, to store at the same time, and with the same measure I’m using and consuming. I want energy in my body, so I make decisions in my life that help me build energy on a daily basis to balance out my daily workout routines that require a lot of energy, especially this new routine my boyfriend created for me. I want to be productive at work every day, so I have to make sure I get rest the night before – every day. If I don’t build and store every day, I won’t be able to work out every day. If I don’t work out every day, I won’t get the results I need. If I fall asleep at work every day, I will eventually lose that job.
So, don’t forget to reload – everything you will need – every day. But don’t just reload. Once you’ve got your daily dose, REACT – use the energy you’ve built for the thing you’ve built it for. Don’t look at me like you don’t know what I’m saying. Some of you just realized you don’t have, or you can’t, or you stopped, or you failed …because you haven’t been reloading your reserves. You’ve been wondering why there’s some emptiness in your life or why something isn’t working. You won’t get to the gym diligently everyday if you’re not being just as diligent in your diet and sleep – everyday. If you’re not loving, respecting, appreciating others, then don’t fucking expect it in return. It’s insane to expect something for nothing, yet we live in a society that believes in that fairy tale. I see it every day. People want healthy fit bodies AND eat pizza while sitting on their asses all day playing video games. They want money, but not the job required to earn it. If you want energy, build energy. If you want POSITIVE energy, then put Positive measures into place and be positive, even when the rest of the world is a bitter asshole.
Till next time,