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Good – Get After It

You’re probably going to see this a lot in the near future, because when I heard Jocko Willink give this little speech on his podcast on YouTube, it hit me – deep in my bones and it’s burning it’s way into the center of my soul.  I hear Jocko’s voice, but I feel God’s prodding.

Listen to it.

Listen to it again.

Listen to it every morning when you first wake up.

Listen to it with your heart and soul.

Listen to it with purpose.

Listen to it until you get it.

Then, when you get it …listen to it some more.

This speaks to the Warrior in me.

Till next time,

~T.L. Gray

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The Stories We Tell

 

 

Last week I listened to a podcast on #MikeDrop; Navy SEAL Mike Ritland’s show, a podcast I’ve grown to love to listen to while I’m working.  In this episode, Ritland interviewed a woman named Emily Joy “GunbunnyActual” Hill. This badass was an Army Apache helicopter pilot and is as tough and vulgar as any sailor I’ve ever heard. At first I was a little reluctant to listen to the podcast, especially when I saw it was 4 hours long.  Not because it was with a woman, but because it wasn’t about a SEAL.  I’m in SEAL mode at the moment, learning, studying, listening, and being amazed at this branch of our Armed Special Forces. However, the Army will always hold a special place in my heart, and I wanted to see the insights this woman had to offer. I wanted to know what this Navy SEAL found so interesting about her. I was not disappointed.

Ms. Joy, who I’ll refer to as Gunbunny, came out of the gate flying, tossing around f-bombs like beaded necklaces in a Mardi-Gras parade. It sounded like she was fighting a head cold, sniffling into a napkin or two, or three, but she was also full of confidence and blunt honesty.  That got my attention right away.  I hate fake politeness.  It didn’t take long before she dropped the first of many, many hard subjects and truths into our laps when she started talking about being sexually molested by a family member when she was a young adult.

I struggled with wanting to turn the podcast off, or continue to listen. I have a hard time with victims, because victims often don’t face their shit. They lay blame, make excuses, and break beneath shame and low self-esteem and become weak and needy. I suppose it’s understandable … just not by me. It’s actually one of my triggers and I get angry around victims. I want to scream at them to suck it up, shut the fuck up, pull up their big girl britches, and fight for themselves – don’t let the world tell them they’re a victim; become a survivor, which only makes me a bully to already weak people. So, I tune it out, turn it off, or walk away. But, Gunbunny sounded strong and confident, so I stuck it out a little longer and I’m glad I did.  She has a terrible, sad, amazing and strong story to tell.  Her nerves are still raw, her voice quivered a time or two, and she struggled between what she wanted to say and what she thought was appropriate to say, but said what was in her heart anyway. So, I give her props. I became more impressed with her as the podcast went on – and 4 hours passed quickly.

But, she wasn’t the only inspiration during that podcast, Mike Ritland did an amazing job being kind, thoughtful, and respectful during the broadcast.  He didn’t TREAT her as a victim, he didn’t placate to her sensibilities or feelings, and he didn’t avoid the hard topic with kid gloves.  He wasn’t an asshole. I could tell at moments from the tenor of his voice that he struggled with some of the things she was telling him. A listener could tell he was hearing them for the first time. I could only imagine that warrior protector inside of him wanting to burst out and slay the world, defend the girl, and make things right struggle like Hell inside him. Yet, he kept his cool, and tackled some hard issues like rape, abuse, adoption, chauvinistic assholes, military demands and failures, women’s roles in special forces, death, struggles with identity and finding purpose AFTER service, etc.

This isn’t a podcast for everyone, but it’s one I wish everyone could hear.  I admire Gunbunny for her courage to tell her story, and I hope she continues to tell it even more, as often as she can. I don’t personally know her. She could be an asshole, or she could be a saint.  She’s human like the rest of us and had to deal with some hard shit.  I don’t know how her tomorrow’s are going to be, but I’m hoping she finds that purpose she’s seeking and with it a little peace.

If you’ve got the guts, check out the podcast. If you do, get some tissues.

Till next time,

~T.L. Gray

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The Company You Keep

The Company You Keep

They say, “You are the company you keep.” Who are they?  This time, it’s many of the people I’ve grown to respect and admire over the years, people who have gone before me such as Epictatus, Benjamin Franklin, Cohen, Albert Einstein, Voltaire, etc.  Japanese Proverb says, “When a character of a man is not clear to you, look at his friends.” English proverb says, “A man is known by the company he keeps.” Drew Houston says, “You become the average of the five people you hang out with.” In 1 Corinthians 15, “Don’t be misled. Bad company corrupts good character.”  Starting to get the point? And before I move on – for those who think keeping their own company solves the bad company issue – you can be the bad influence in your own life.  “Character is much easier kept than recovered,” Thomas Payne.

I say that, to say this …be careful of the company you keep.  If your life is falling apart and you keep suffering, you keep failing, you keep facing the same problems over and over and over, look around at your support system. If you don’t have a support system – then that too is your fault and responsibility.  You can’t blame the world for leading your astray or letting you down – because the world hasn’t been around. YOU led yourself astray and YOU let yourself down.  But, if you do have a support system – check yourself and check them.  Are they a strong, positive, inspirational, encouraging, moralistic, supportive, natural leaders, got their shit together, and successful examples? If not, then there might be the problem. The BIGGER question – are you all those things to your friends AND to yourself?  There’s another answer to your failures and problems.

We delude ourselves. I’ve done it. I’m guilty.  Thomas Payne is right, “To argue with a person who has renounced the use of reason is like administering medicine to the dead.”  We quickly and easily want to lay blame to others for our failures.  It’s his fault, it’s her fault, it’s their fault, I didn’t have the same opportunities, life isn’t fair, if I didn’t have kids, if I had only got an education, if I had the money, and so on and so on. I’ve heard the excuses. I’ve tried to use them, but when it comes down to it – I can only blame myself for making poor choices, either in ignorance or vanity.

One thing I have learned through it all – I noticed a pattern, am noticing the pattern again, and must conclude – the times of my greatest successes coincided with the times I surrounded myself with people that lent me strength to achieve those successes, who encouraged me, and who inspired me. No one ever did anything FOR me, I’ve fought hard for everything I’ve ever achieved through sacrifice and hard work. The times of my greatest failures and disappointments were when I surrounded myself with vampires, by selfish, lazy people, by bad company who took my love, my charity, my compassion, and my gifts for granted – and left me empty and dry. Shame on me.

We think the company we keep doesn’t really affect us, our life, our successes or our failures, but that’s just a lie we tell ourselves because we don’t want to face the truth: the company we keep reflects WHO WE ARE, where we are in life, and what we value. You can lie to yourself all you want, but if you want to know who you really are, not who you think you are, look at the people around you – look at the company you keep.

I am uncommon amongst uncommon people. I am beautiful. I am strong. I am filled with passion, integrity and good character.  I am driven. I am determined. I love myself and I’m working hard to cut out the leeches, the vampires, the excuses, the corrupt, the liars, and the thieves  – and surround myself with people who inspire me, who love me, who value me, who encourage me, who love and value themselves – because I am not done yet. I have achieved a lot in this world, but I have more work to do.  I’m not looking for perfect people – no such thing exists. I’m looking for uncommon people amongst uncommon people – the dreamers, the fighters, the people who don’t take no for answers, the people who never give up, and the people who don’t let excuses stop them. That will be the company I will be to others and the company I keep. Because of that – watch what I do, it’s gonna be fucking amazing!

 

Till next time,

~T.L. Gray

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Weaver of Words

Weaver of Words

Sometimes it seems my life is stuck in a rut and refuses to move either to the left or right, keeping me circling the same tree over and over and over again. Other times it moves so fast I think if I blink I’m going to miss the thousands of things flying by in a rapid pace. That seems to be the way it’s been these last few weeks.  So many new things have happened I can barely recognize my life or what it had been just a couple months ago.

With all the thousands of ideas moving in, out and around me, I’m taking a quick step back to see if I notice a pattern. I usually can’t see the image when I’m up close or right in the middle of a thought.  Some pictures need a wider view.  So, what are these patterns I’ve been noticing?  What are the words, thoughts, and meditations that’s been coursing through my mind of late?  What do they mean? What are they trying to tell me? Where do they lead? Most importantly, which ones do I listen to and which do I ignore? Whew, I’m getting a bit overwhelmed just thinking about them.

I’ve been on a journey lately, one of the mind, most importantly, one of the soul.  My imagination has been soaring to distant worlds, floating on different planes, seeking wisdom and enlightenment in understanding.  Here are some of the quotes that have motivated me lately. Here are few words of wonder.

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“Sometimes you have to stop being scared and just go for it.  Either it will work out, or it won’t. That’s life.”

“Promote what you love instead of bashing what you hate.”

“Never let the odds keep you from doing what you know in your heart you were meant to do.”

“The Buddhists say if you meet someone and your heart pounds, your hands shake, and your knees go weak, that’s not the one.  When you meet your soul mate, you’ll feel calm. No anxiety. No agitation.”

“Find someone you can be completely free with; sexually, spiritually, emotionally, physically, and cosmically, and go freaking WILD.”

“Find a heart that will love you at your worst and arms that will hold you at your weakest.”

“You cannot force someone to comprehend a message that they are not ready to receive.  Still, you must never underestimate the power of planting a seed.”

“I’m very picky with whom I give my energy to. I prefer to reserve my time, intensity and spirit exclusively to those who reflect sincerity.”

“We’re so busy studying and seeking to find our life’s mission, let us not forget to look around and simply ask, “How can I help?”

“I admire people who choose to shine even after all the storms they’ve been through.”

“I love you neither with my heart nor my mind. My heart might stop, and my mind can forget.  I love you with my soul because my soul never stops or forgets.”

“A person’s actions will tell you everything you need to know.”

“You deserve the love you keep trying to give everyone else.”

“I don’t want a perfect life; I want a happy life.”

“Whatever you do, never run back to what broke you.”

“On this road called life, you have to take the good with the bad, smile with the sad, love what you got and remember what you had. Always forgive, but never forget. Learn from mistakes, but never forget. People change. Things go wrong. But just remember, the ride goes on.”

“When you connect with people who are good for you, you feel it.  This is a big deal. Don’t forget to acknowledge how great it is to be around someone who lights you up. Tell them, even if you feel a little weird. Your people love your weirdness.”

“When you kiss someone and you stop kissing them for second and smile, and then kiss again… I can’t think of something more beautiful than that.”

“Let your weird light shine bright so the other weirdos know where to find you.”

“I think it’s important to realize you can miss something and not want it back.”

“You don’t know this new me; I put back my pieces differently.”

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I think you’re starting to get the picture.  Well, I hope I’m able to get the picture, because those are some amazing clues.  I’m still digesting, still trying to wrap my mind around what it all means, what it’s trying to tell me, what I need to hear.  I may not know the whole extent of it at this moment, but I already know it’s all good.

I’ve smiled more in the last few weeks than I have in a very long time.  Sometimes I get a little sad when I think back to other times I used to smile so much it made my cheeks hurt.  Those times, those memories, those associated with those memories will always be precious to me.  But, this is a new day, a new time, and a new season to smile. I’ve cried enough.  Joy comes with the morning, and baby… the sun is rising.

“I’ve got a pocket, got a pocket full of sunshine.”

I don’t know what tomorrow holds. I don’t know what’s in store for me. Maybe it’s a great adventure. Maybe it’s a great love affair. Maybe it’s a new page to a new story.  Whatever it is, however weird it is, I’m ready and I want it.

Till next time,

~Weaver of Words of Wonder

 

 

 

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Good Morning, World – April 4 – April 17

Here are my latest morning musings.  I hope you enjoy them.

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Good Morning, World

Good Morning, World

 

Sometimes I’m quite blown away by my morning musings – early thoughts as I’m between realms – half in dreams/half awake.  I thought I’d share my musings and meditations over the past few weeks.  Sometimes looking at them from a distance I can sometimes spot patterns.  So, I’m probably most excited to see what I can … well, see about myself.

 

03/18/2014 – “Good morning, world. I have such lovely dreams. They’re often enough to sustain me from day to day, providing me with enough inspiration to smile. But sometimes they’re not enough. Sometimes, I need reality to be just as lovely to inspire my dreams.”

 

03/17/2014 – “Good morning world. Being lied to is the biggest form of disrespect. Accepting the lie is being disrespectful to your self. Both hurt. Sometimes we just can’t face the truth. Sometimes we just don’t want to.”

 

03/15/2014 – “Good morning, world. In our lives, we have many mountains to climb. Some will push us to our limits, others will test our faith. But the best mountains will be the ones we conquer with love.

Today, I hope to conquer three real mountains and the fulfillment of another dream.”

 

03/14/2014 – “I just wanted to tell everyone today how much I love and appreciate you… just in case I don’t make it back tomorrow from the Monadnock Madness Climb 2014. I’m so excited. I’m climbing Stone Mountain, Arabia Mountain and Panola Mountain. Wish me luck… and you can be sure I’m going to take plenty of pictures.”

 

03/13/2014 – “Meditating by the lake. Enjoying the miracle and songs of nature. Feeling hopeful about the future. I am so blessed to be able to hear the music of my soul. I’m often so busy in life, I often can’t hear the melody. I get so distracted I can’t see the miraculous beauty. I get so lonely I become disconnected. I get so afraid it becomes noisy. But right now, I’m at peace and my soul is singing.”

 

03/12/2014 – “Good morning, world. Ever have moments when your heart and your head aren’t on the same page? It causes war to rage inside. But when the two can come into agreement, you become amazing and unstoppable.”

 

03/11/2014 – “Good morning, world. Dreams and fantasies are fun and exciting, filled with all the magic and possibilities of the imagination. Make my reality even more exciting than my fantasies. Let me love, laugh, and live as vibrantly as my dreams.”

 

03/10/2014 – “Good morning, world. Why do the loving often go unloved, and the cold-hearted leave behind a trail of tears? Why do the honest often go hungry and the thief enjoy stolen fruit? I watch a man slowly kill himself by gluttonous eating trying to fill an emotional emptiness with food, and a woman slowly starve herself to present an outward beauty. It’s all vanity, meaningless. It breaks my heart.”

 

03/09/2014 – “Good morning, world. I sometimes wonder how you really see me. I know how I see myself. I also know we’re both wrong and the truth lay somewhere in the middle.”

 

03/08/2014 – “Good morning, world. There are moments I feel I cannot go on. I want to crawl beneath my covers, and enter into a permanent sleep, too exhausted to even lick my wounds. But just before my eyes close, there’s an ember that stirs into a flame by a gentle wind. Though broken and bruised, I rise to fight again.”

 

03/07/2014 – “Good morning, world. There are moments I feel I cannot go on. I want to crawl beneath my covers, and enter into a permanent sleep, too exhausted to even lick my wounds. But just before my eyes close, there’s an ember that stirs into a flame by a gentle wind. Though broken and bruised, I rise to fight again.”

 

03/06/2014 – “Good morning, world. Do you ever find yourself avoiding something that really isn’t a big deal, but for no reason you keep putting it off until it becomes one? Why do we do things like this? We can be complicated creatures sometimes.”

 

03/05/2014 – “Good morning, world. We can’t feel her moving, but the earth is spinning. She spun before we arrived, and will continue long after we’re gone. Yet, we are fools to think we can control her, strive to dominate her, and continue to destroy her.”

 

03/04/2014 – “Good morning, world. We strive for many great things. Some of us are able to achieve pieces of those different elements of greatness and that sets us apart. What makes us the same is we all desire to be loved.”

 

03/03/2014 – “Good morning, world. As Winter takes its final bow and Spring bounces onto the scene, there seems to be an energy released into the universe. It inspires rebirth, rejuvenation, restoration. But part of me doesn’t want to see some old things come back alive. I desire creation… the formation of something new. To get something I’ve never had, I’m going to have to do something I’ve never done.”

 

03/02/2014 – “Good morning, world. Conflict and difference are a part of life, and reason stands in the wings, waiting for honesty to bridge the gap.”

 

03/01/2014 – “Good morning, world. Boxes and walls. Why do we let them close us in? Why do we allow them to push others out? Why do we deceive ourselves and think they protect us, or that we need them? Yes, breaking them down can, and often, hurt. Having them at all hurts us most.”

 

What do these musings mean? I don’t know. I’ll need to think about them some more.

 

Till next time,

~T.L. Gray

 

 

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Be Happy

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I’m learning that the happier I am, the happier people I attract, and the happier people become around me. Happiness and joy are contagious. I feel better, stronger and am less afraid.  But also just as addictive are the negative depressives.  Another important thing I’m learning is that I don’t have to allow these negative depressives into my life – it’s okay to cut them out.

I’m not talking about beautiful friends who may be having a bad day, a hard time, or a moment of sadness, weakness, or depression.  Being a good friend is reaching out and being a comfort to them, lending a shoulder, a hug, an attentive ear – and doing all we can to be there and lift our friend out of the dark place.  Those are the best opportunities to share our happiness, be an inspiration, and be a good friend. I wouldn’t be where I am today without the wonderful friends in my life who helped me.

What I am talking about are those who ONLY look at the world with negative dark-colored glasses, where they seek out all that’s wrong with everything (yes, the world sucks and there’s a lot of bad things going on – I don’t stick my head in mud and pretend I live in a fairy tale), look for the bad in everyone, expects everyone to hurt, have manipulative intents and alternative motives.  I know.  I used to be that hurt, angry, little girl. It’s not a nice way to live.  It ages and beats you down and crushes your spirit.

I’m becoming that irritating person who chooses to look for the silver-lining.  I show up to work smiling, singing and spreading positive platitudes, skipping through the day making all negative depressives want to stab me in the face. But I choose to still smile, because they have no idea what I’m going through, or that most days I’m fighting some of the biggest battles in my life, or that I walk around terrified and alone almost all the time.  My smile is my weapon.  An upbeat song in my heart, or playing in my ears through my iPod, is my armor.

There will be days when I’m going to need to be carried, because I’ve dropped my weapons and have been overcome by the shadows of depression – but those days are happening less and less as I become happier.

Proverbs 16:24: “Pleasant words are as a honeycomb, sweet to the soul and medicine to the bones.”

Proverbs 17:22: “A merry heart does good, like medicine.  But a broken spirit dries the bones.”

Smile today, especially if you don’t feel like it.

Till next time,

~T.L. Gray

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Keep Your Head Up – Andy Grammer

Wow, I really needed this song this morning and I’m so glad I heard it. I can guarantee I’ll be playing this throughout the day on my playlist. There’s nothing better to pull me out of a bad thought, a moment of depression, or a panicked episode of fear than listening to a upbeat, positive, inspiring song – other than a kind encouraging word from a dear friend.

So, take a minute… listen to this song… keep your head up… and let your hair down… and smile.

Till next time,

~T.L. Gray

Andy Grammar

Keep Your Head Up

I’ve been waiting on a sunset,

Bills on my mindset

I can’t deny they’re getting high

Higher than my income, income’s bread crumbs

I’ve been trying to survive

The glow that sun gets right around sunset helps me to realize

This is just a journey

Drop your worries, you are gonna turn out fine

Oh…

You turn out fine

Fine, oh, you turn out fine…

(chorus)

But, you gotta keep your head up

Oh oh

And you can let your hair down

Eh eh

You gotta keep your head up

Oh oh

And you can let your hair down

Eh eh

I know it’s hard, know it’s hard to remember sometimes

But, you gotta keep your head up

Oh oh

And you can let your hair down

Eh eh eh eh eh

I got my hands in my pockets kicking these rocks

It’s kinda hard to watch this life go by

I’m buying into skeptics

Skeptics mess with the confidence in my eyes

I’m seeing all the angles thoughts get tangled

I start to compromise my life and my purpose

Is it all worth it? Am I gonna turn out fine?

Oh oh, you turn out fine

Fine, oh oh you turn out fine

(chorus)

Only rainbows after rain

The sun will always come again and

It’s a circle, circling around again

It comes around again

I said only rainbows after rain

The sun will always come again

It’s a circle, circling around again

It comes around

(chorus)

Keep your head up

Oh oh

And you can let your hair down

Eh eh

For more on Andy Grammer:

Official Site – http://www.andygrammer.com

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2010 S-Curve Records

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In the Depth of Winter

In the Depth of Winter

Being stuck at home with the roads iced over and just my thoughts for company, the snow and quiet gave me plenty of time to think.  For someone like me, someone who over-thinks everything, that’s not necessarily a good thing.  However, I’m so intrigued with the universe it’s caused me to enjoy my isolation.

This morning amid the rush of conducting interviews, setting up photo shoots, finishing up my latest review project, writing my articles in a mad dash to meet tomorrow’s deadlines, and laughing at the silliness of my friends on Facebook, I caught a moment of reflection.  As I stood by the French doors, sipping on a cup of hot cocoa and watching the birds play in the snow, I meditated on a quote by philosopher Albert Camus.

“In the depth of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer.”

Within us all abides everything we need to navigate this life.  Martha Beck, author of Finding Your Own North Star delicately states it as, “Explorers depend on the North Star when there are no other landmarks in sight.  The same relationship exists between you and your right life, the ultimate realization of your potential for happiness.  I believe that the knowledge of that perfect life sits inside you just as the North Star sits in its unfaltering spot.”

I understand going through winter, and I’m not talking about cold temperatures and snow, but a season in life where everything is in hibernation, cold, hidden.  This has me pondering what Camus meant by an invincible summer. Invincible means incapable of being conquered, subdued, or defeated; insuperable, insurmountable.  I’ve learned recently, having been afraid concerning the defeat of my soul, I’m stronger than I thought and haven’t faltered.  I still breathe. I still live.  I still hope.  I still believe in better days and finding success in life and love; shining beneath the summer sun.

To me, summer is happiness, joy and freedom.  So, according to Camus and Beck, I have everything within me, no matter what season I’m going through, to possess an invincible summer.  I believe it.  As I stare at the snow, I don’t see cold and wet, but beauty and wonder.

The same is true for everyone …we all possess the same potential.  So, even as we brave the snow and ice …let our inner light shine.

Till next time,

~T.L. Gray

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My Walter Mitty Moments

Walter Mitty

I’ve recently had the pleasure of watching the movie, The Secret Life of Walter Mitty, and this film has touched my heart in so many ways.  Not because the movie inspired a new thing in me, but because a new thing in me was reflected.  This past year, and even now, I have had many Walter Mitty moments.

What is a Walter Mitty moment, you may ask? It’s a moment in a person’s life when they go from dreaming of life – to actually living it.

Here are a few quotes from the movie that absolutely resonate in my heart:

*Stop dreaming.  Start living.

*Beautiful things don’t ask for attention.

*To see the world, things dangerous to come to, to see behind walls, draw closer, to find each other, and to feel. That is the purpose of life.

Don’t misunderstand me, I’m not talking only about moments where everything is wonderful, exciting, new, etc… you know, those milestones we all mark in life as a major achievement?  Some of these Mitty moments are minor, unrecorded, simple, everyday things, but they’re still in the realm of the living, not a member of zombieland.

I’ve been a dreamer my whole life, always feeling like a spectator, but not a willing participant.  There have been many great moments, right along with many dark moments, but all disconnected moments.  My dreams always seemed more real than my life, as well as my nightmares. I always felt like I waited for something, wondering when it was my time, always waiting for the next wave, the next break, the next lot to fall to me, but they never came. I feared everything. Time frittered by as I went through the motions. I felt the pain and the joy, but was always lost, always searching, always waiting, yearning, wanting.

But as a butterfly sheds its cocoon, so too have I shed my metamorphic shell.  I have beautiful wings.  I’m flying. The wind brushes my face and I’m soaring through the universe discovering it’s beauty, realizing I’m part of it.  It’s not easy.  It’s not all exciting moments.  Half the time I don’t know where I am, or even where I’m going, but I’m flying …I’m living …I’m discovering who I am …I’m loving myself, and my reality is becoming more vibrant than my dreams.

Do I have the answers to the universe or the keys to happiness?  No.  All I know is that what was once gray, is now vibrant; what was once out of reach, now flows through my heart; what was once dead, now lives.

Can I fail?  Yes.  Can I lose?  Yes.  Can I make a mistake?  Yes.  Can I get hurt?  Yes.  But I can also succeed, win, make a great match, fall in love, and be extremely happy.   All I know is I’m going to live as fully as I can as I go through what life I have left.  Living isn’t just smiling… it’s crying, hoping, fearing, getting excited, being disappointed, dreaming, hoping, taking chances, trying, jumping, being in the moment and just being honest, opening my heart.

What have you done lately?

Where have you been lately?

What have you dreamed lately?

What have  you taken a chance on lately?

Who have you loved lately?

Who have you allowed to love you lately?

Jump.

Jump. Jump.

Open your arms.  Open your heart.  Jump. Live. Fly.

*Also, get this soundtrack …it’s awesome!!!

Till next time,

~T.L. Gray

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