Ever heard the old adage, “If it’s too easy, you’re not reading the fine print?” Or yet a better one, “If it’s too good to be true, it often isn’t?” There’s always a catch when it comes to shortcuts, especially when it comes to dreams and big obstacles that come into our lives. We are a Burger King world where we want it our way and we want it now. But, life will remind us that it’s not always good to have things ‘our way’ and patience really is a virtue.
Right now I’m working on a couple goals, and healing from a huge obstacle that had been in my life. I’m not making huge strides, but I am making positive progress, and that’s what matters most. I’d love to have the speed of the rabbit, but I’m learning the steady pace of the turtle will win my race.
I write this blog, and post my posts on social media, and my smiling selfies, not so I can shout out to the world to look at me and see what I’m doing. I write to me, and I post to me, as a way to remind myself where I am, where I’ve been, and where I’m going. It’s so I can track my progress. How do I know if I’m moving forward unless I have these little reminders that mark my journey?
Some think I’m being narcissistic or vain, but I really don’t give a shit what they think. The only people whose opinion truly matters know who they are in my life. They know where I’ve come from, where I want to go, and encourage me every step of the way forward toward progress. One of the best things I’ve done for myself these past several months was to remove myself from the toxic, judgmental, self-righteous selfishness that beat me down every day. I have surrounded myself with beautiful, loving, kind, considerate, thoughtful, generous, smart, and driven people – because I needed it. I was exhausted and broken – and even reached a low point where I just wanted to die so I wouldn’t feel pain and disappointment anymore. I did my best, but I realized that nothing I ever did or would do was ever going to change anything. I was out of place, running the wrong race. But, now I’m free and I am so thankful for the beautiful people that inspire me. See, that’s the difference – I’m surround by people that motivate, encourage, and support me, human beings I’m proud to know who don’t ask anything of me, don’t use me, and don’t take advantage of me, but only ask for me to be me and to be happy.
I needed to be saved – from myself. I needed to be free – so I could rescue myself. I had to start all over again – from the bottom, but I’m moving up – one small step, one small accomplishment, one small decision, one small action, and one small moment at a time. I’m making progress.
Till next time,