“Some men are too dull to feel what might happen. Others torture themselves with maybes and populate their dreams with horrors more terrible than their worst enemy could inflict upon them.”
― Mark Lawrence, Prince of Thorns
This is one of the reasons why I’m a Mark Lawrence fan. There are baubles of wisdom such as this all through the Broken Empire series. While I zip through his books on a first read to discover what happens plot-wise and character-wise, I then slow down, take my time and meditate on many of the passages, such as the one listed above, and really sit back in awe at his wisdom.
This phrase has been rolling around in my brain for a few days because I find myself once again at another crossroad, with another huge decision to make, and teeter back and forth concerning my choices.
I’m guilty of doing everything described above. At times, not because I’m dull, but perhaps because I’m numb, I can’t even form the words in my mind or heart of what might happen, so I feel and think nothing, pushing all thoughts away. Then other times, many times really, I lose sleep worried over all the possibilities of what could be successful, and terrified by all the fears of what could be disastrous. Welcome to humanity.
However, if I had to choose between the two, I’d choose the latter, because I’d rather feel fear and uncertainty than nothing at all. Indifference, in my opinion, is the worse state to exist. Anger, hate, fear, hope, love and anticipation are all varying degrees of passion. I’d rather be passionate, even if it’s passionately wrong, than be passion-less, indifferent, or dull. I might as well be dead.
Till next time,